21 June 2010

an emotional goodbye..


i remember it as if it were only last year. it was 2004. i was a senior in college. my high school best friend ian and i were talking on the phone (landline, mind you) and he mentioned he was selling his civic.

me: "really? can i buy it?"
ian: "but you don't even know how to drive."
me: "then i'll learn how to drive."

a week later, the car was turned over to me, and my brother took me out to alabang zapote road, slex, and jp rizal to teach me how to drive the manila way.







fast forward to may 2010.

"wje", as he is fondly called by me, my family, and closest friends, had to say goodbye. it was painful to see this decade old car go in and out of honda again and again for different repairs. you must know this about wje:

..wje is my first ever purchase with anything i've ever saved up from modeling while i was in college.
..he was my first major investment with my hard earned money.
..he was the first thing i owned that had my name on paper saying i owned it.
..he has been with me through my absolute best and happiest times, and he has been with me through all those devastatingly low times driving home alone crying.
..he was with me when i graduated college, when i went to every vtr or audition, when i got my first job in tv production, and when i got the opportunity of the job i have today.

he was high and mighty and amazing in my eyes.. and to see him getting "sickly" through time was just painful. after some radiator problems mid-may, i knew it was time. in my heart, it was time to say goodbye.







i know wje may be "just a car", and at the end of the day, he is just a material thing in this world. but its the memories that me, my family, my friends, my loved ones, or even total strangers have with wje that makes him so important in my life.

as i sat there in the honda showroom waiting for papers to be fixed to trade him in, tears swelled up in my eyes. it was a goodbye i didn't think would hit me as much as it did. i asked to see him one last time, "i just have to take one last picture," i told the honda staff.





you will be missed wje! thank you so, so much for the memories. you will always be my first.

53 comments:

ekiM said...

That was a really nice story miss Bianca, I admire you more for this. Thanks for sharing..

A N A G O N said...

Ang sad! it's like crying over toystory3 (hehe)--material things, but with meaning because of the memories shared with it and your loved ones :,)

KD said...

this entry made me teary eyed!

Pao said...

Thanks for sharing this story Ms. Bianca. wje is certainly a big part of your life but there's always this time for goodbye. Memories should be kept as wonderful treasures and I think you had lots of them with wje. Good luck with your new car.

iammichellexoxo said...

I like this story.=)

Anonymous said...

Aw :( I can really feel you in this post. I'm about to drive my car and I hope to build memories with mine too, as you did with wje. More power Bianca! Just want to say that I really really love your blog and the way you write. God bless you!

Anonymous said...

awww. time to let go pero okay lang yan... Grabe super kakainspire ka talaga ms. bianca :)

Anya Ingrid S. Villar said...

Hi Bianca. I felt the same way when my dad sold our tricycle so he could purchase a second-hand van a few years ago. That tricycle has been with our family when my siblings and I were growing up: from attending town fiestas, baptisms, birthdays, weddings... My dad even brought me to the school prom using our tricycle. I used to be ashamed of having a tricycle for a"family vehicle" when I was younger, but I learned how much it means to me when we need to let it go. I miss our good 'ol tricycle. :(

mrock said...

oh, wow. i'm almost crying. i don't know the feeling of turning in your first car as i don't have a first car yet, but i can feel you.

KS said...

ahhh :( love you bianks...

jake said...

i guess it time to buy a new car :> car is like love.. love come and go..(tell that to mariel :) ) cars come and go.. http://facebook.com/johnken

KS said...

btw,, i think there is something wrong with the layout of your blog,, its an html thing :) it duplicates the entire blog.. i can help you, if you want.. but im no expert. johnken.santos is my gmail

jinky said...

wow, nice one!

the only thing that's constant is this world is change...and I know this one's for the better!

sjo said...

bye wje. :(

Shalum said...

i know the feeling. keep the pics! ;)

ritchee ayala said...

:: there has to be goodbyes B. don't be sad. wje loves you and will miss you also :)

bLack aNgeL said...

aawwww.... bye wje..

Gillian Uang said...

hi bianca. I just stumbled upon your blog and I was wondering if you could help me out on how you disabled people from enlarging and stealing your photos :) hope to hear from you soon. :)

Lianne said...

i know exactly what you mean!! my dad sold the car i was using for a couple of years without telling me. i was so upset!! i felt like i lost a friend and wasn't even given a chance to say good bye :(

MyJayv said...

:(

Your blog is so great!!!!!
Every post is so meaningful...

What a story.

:(

Anonymous said...

my dad had a toyota tercel for more than a decade. for the same reason we sold it last year. he canceled pa with the first buyer because it was hard for him to let go of his car.

MyJayv said...

Hi Bianca.
I just wanna follow up from my last comment. This has got nothing to do with the post but I just wanna know how you disable the link on your Image Header. The new one looks wonderful by the way :)

Angelo Pedrosa said...

thinking of this, i do have 1 purchase of my own, a 4k worth china phone(cheap!), from my 1st job as nurse, but am jobless again so,i hope, i get to have more-something more valuable like yours, like an ipad or car someday.hehe

Angelo Pedrosa said...

yes,it can be tough to say goodbye to things that made our lives more bearable(even i dont have a big purchase like yours)i just wish i'll have mine in time:)

Angelo Pedrosa said...

yes,can be hard to bid goodbye to things that made our life more bearable(eventhough, my 1st purchase- a china phone, from my first salary-hehe)i just wish I'll have more valuable things to come my way like you do,knowing that im now jobless.huhu

Lady Margarette said...

you mentioned that on you ktxt! haha! that was really a major adjustment. :)

believe it or not, my car was named after you! :) i call her Bianca kasi I read on your post noon pa that you had your left side mirror broken. (and i was like, woah! she must be a hell driver) and that's where it all started!!

thank you for this post! car owners will definitely be impressed on this one!

God Bless you more on your career! and congrats for having a new car!!! :) :)

akihabara otaku said...

hi ms. bianca.

i can relate well with your blogpost.

i think it doesn't matter if we personify material things, because "they" are a part of our life, and probably have seen everything about us, how we can smile when we just cried the other day, how stressful our lives , etc... things that other people won't know..

and over years, "they" have simply been a part of our life that, letting go of them would make us feel, "something is missing".



btw,
@gillian - it is done by javascript. just add a right-click alert function. but still, people can copy it if they disable javascript. the best way is to manipulate the picture at server, just like this one... click here. see that the picture get some stamp message each time it is viewed.

Anonymous said...

Awwww that's sooo sad! It's like letting of that security blanket that's always by our side then it gets ruin and we have to let it go:(

Shoo Bee said...

i admire you for being such a great and lovable car owner... i agree that its not a thing per se but the memories you shared with it.

Sey said...

bye bye to "wje"....I know the car was happy to have you back then...let's wish it well.!

Anonymous said...

aw....

Anonymous said...

awww grabe parang naiiyak din ako habang binabasa ko to..
sana mag blog ka lagi, nkakatouch basahin.. :)

Celina said...

aww.. goodbye wje

Unknown said...

awww:( i know the feeling. I had to do the same thing to my baby Civic. It was also my first car I bought with my own hard earned money. I've owned my civic for 9 years. I could still be driving my civic if the insurance company didn't totaled it when I was in an accident.

ivanrhys said...

wje must be very proud to have you as his captain.. =)

Lady Margarette said...

"but I really do believe in her talent. I know that she will do an excellent job, and not only complement Boy Abunda, but also bring out the best in Boy," Aquino added.

(heyyyy!! CONGRATULATIONS for being the new host of SNN! good job!)

Anonymous said...

finally a post! yay! i've been hitting your blog almost everyday to check for updates. and yes, what a way to give us an update by sharing this story. it's sad, but there are really times that we have to let go. i'm sure "wje" will be proud of you from the frist time you met up to where you are now!

thanks for sharing! hopefully you'll introduce us to your new "family".

dontstareatmesweetie said...

i share the same feeling. :(

jill said...

this is soooooooo sweeeeeeet!! :D and touchy.. if wje just had feelings, im sure he'll love you also forever!!

Anonymous said...

I hate saying goodbyes!

Anonymous said...

wow!! i learn new lesson from this ate bianx.. :(

tnx..

my ipapakita pala ako sayo ate bianx hope you like this :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h39WHVxgZes

tnx...

zionace11/zionace

arra said...

aww.. :( i hate goodbyes especially when it's your first.. you really loved wje.. sweet of you

debx26 said...

goodbyes are really painful.by d way, ganda po ng blog mo.it's really inspiring and at the same time, entertaining:-)

i@иn℮™ said...

that's sweet. more than a material thing, it's the memories created with him that makes it special.

katedadz said...

:(((((((((

jennncute said...

hi bianx.. oh well, that's life.. i'll cry for you too.. will pray for him.. huhhuhuhu :'( -@jennncute (twitter)

jennncute said...

hi bianx.. oh well, that's life.. i'll cry for you too.. will pray for him.. huhhuhuhu :'( -@jennncute (twitter)

Anonymous said...

I suddenly remembered my first car. My heart still drops every time I randomly see it with the new owner.

Mine was WAR. And it's a Honda too. :)

a-u-d-y said...

ohhh.. its really sad to say goodbye esp special ang isang bagay sa atin.

Xia said...

awww..Ate Bianca i love reading your blog.
but yeah it's sad..bye WJE

irish said...

it's just a car. it was just wje. it was just a material thing with no life, but but but. when you have it in all impt phases in your life, wje is no ordinary car nor material thing. i know trading it is really very hard. we feel that this kind of possession is irreplaceable. whew.

na touch talaga ako with wje's story. all good things have its goodbyes but the memories will just live by.

i miss commenting on your blog. all the best biancs! :)

Anonymous said...

teary-eyed... ;( goodbyes are painful... as painful as moving on...

Anonymous said...

Gosh. It's really hard to let go of something sentimental, especially if that particular thing served you well.. I know how it feels. :(